Memoir Monday: Forever Alone?

     Being a teenager: Beautiful, yet you're extremely stereotyped and misunderstood. Being a teenager: everybody treating you as a child but expecting you to act and think like an adult. Being a teenager:  Sitting in my bed in the middle of the night wondering if the food in my fridge will fill the emptiness of being socially awkward or maybe just cure my boredom for a little bit. Being a teenager: stalking your crush regularly, because somehow, in a parallel world, you imagine you might me together if only he knew how much you really have in common.

     Since I turned 10, the double digit (wohoo), I've always looked forward to having the "teen" at the end of my age number. For me, it meant respect and being different from the "little ones." It meant being part of a select group of incredibly potential young adults living the life the way they want to. Little by little more and more freedom, begininng with a laptop, a blackberry, then a house key, a longer curfew, more allowence, a driver's liscence, a first car, and even a credit card if you're lucky. To be honest, I had so many expectations about how I would feel, how I would change to be suddenly "cool," but I'm 13, almost 14 and I still feel the same way I did when I was 12 years old. Don't get me wrong though, the parties are cool and all but there's so much homework and stuff its not even fun anymore, only more stress and pimples. 

     My life as a teenager, I guess it was going pretty chill and everything until everybody started having these "relationships" and something called "dating" and I'm just sitting here like what is going on!? Its like I'm starting to feel weird and all because I don't have a so-called boyfriend. Then there was more school work, more stress, more lies, more drama, more tears, less hang-outs, less movies, less social life altogether. I thought it would get easier or a little less stressing but it only got worse and worse. 

      There comes a point when you realize you need a social life. This is when you're sitting in your bed facing the laptop screen on a saturday night, food just doesn't seem interesting anymore, and you're on your blog reblogging cute couples' pictures. One hour. Two hours. Three hours. 3AM. "Oh God, I'm forever alone!!!"

      Because of my experience, I learned to be patient. I stopped worrying about boyfriends and shit, he'll come one day!!! Sometimes school can be extremely overwhelming, so unsatisfying it makes you emotionally unstable because of the pressure to be "all that" but the truth is, as far as growing old and growing up I've learned if you make an effort to be better it'll definately pay off when you finally get the newest blackberry or the laptop that you wanted. Effort = rewards. Finding a motivation is crucial in your daily life, find an inspiration, set goals, work hard and always be thankful.